I didn't blog yesterday because I was just too tired after attending a BMTC Clerks gathering at NYDC... and today i attended a BMTC Orion Company gathering at Cafe Cartel.. and so this week is like a BMTC gathering week for me which is good! Its been some time since I met up my clerk kakis like shawn from ninja and patrick and kevin from manpower branch...

For yesterday's night gathering at NYDC, shawn, chin, wilbur, kevin and patrick turned up for the dinner.. it was quite fun as we talk about our dearest chief clerk susan yong and etc... we then walked to Palais Renaissance to have cakes at Marmalade Pantry... and then ended the day with a car ride home to Tanah Merah on Wilbur's car.

For today's gathering, its a gathering with the people whom I'd spent my 2 years 4 months of my time with.. with people who were once so close and dearly to me as we slept under one roof and had lotsa fun and laughters. People who came included Ivan, Stan, William, CQ, Najib, Chui Haolun, Zhiwei, Albert, Leonard and a few other people... it was a good gathering as I'm reminded of the good old times.. Najib brought along his "do-re-mi" girlfriend who we kept trying to recall her name... and CQ still the same old CQ reading his books and etc... and Ang seems to be doing quite well... and I'm really glad that everyone is doing fine... We're so happy today that we had decided to do a BBQ on the 12th. Hope its gonna be a successful one.

Besides the outing today nothing much liao ... doing work and etc.. feeling tired and lotsa things to clear.. and I really duno how I should start clearing all my work.. sigh... someone said something to me about how I looked today... felt kinda sad as I took it quite to hard.. and while on the way back home today.. i started asking myself why am I born looking like that? I don't really blame that person for saying that to me but my confidence just got knock down by 50% again... I'm trying my best to look good already but I know I'm not one born with good looks... I guess what he said ... just meant quite a bit to me.. I don't really wanna to be known to look at some Mr X or Mr Y... I don't care if he's rich or not.. I just want to be myself and feel good.. and alright here I go again.. standard pisces thinking.. emo go ahead and emo ...

*nites*

I'd expected a part 2 of the blog for today... but sigh I'm not really in a very good mood right now. I have not been going through mood swings for quite some time already but it just strucked me when I completed my 5.2km run just now. Today's run was a horrible one, I feel tired and restless and my stamina and timing is dropping tremendously. I'm not sure what is happening and I'm feeling so frustrated and confused about all that is happening around me.

Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... I should be happy... I should be merry... I should be cherry but I'm not... I have been feeling sulky but didn't really show it out till today. There's too much things hidden deep inside for me to tell anyone about it and I guess I'm not too sure how I should go about doing it... Its just hard these days to really find someone to talk about stuffs... and I actually said something harsh (not sure if its harsh but I felt that it's harsh) to a friend and I'm feeling very very bad about it right now.. sigh...

I still have my loads of christmas presents to wrap tomorrow. Actually I'm not sure if I should have spent so much money buying gifts for people who may or may not appreciate it... this shall be the last year that I do such things... I guess I'm not gonna do it anymore... I feel sick and tired of being nice and treating people nice... Its time to move on...MOVE ON and think for myself... I just simply care too much about others to really think for myself.

I should go bath soon. Today's run timing sucks.. Its 37mins 15 secs.... I hope I will feel better soon... *Nites*

Sunday Morning... I finally had a good sleep! Last night I planned to go for a run but prior to the run.. I went for a nap at 9.15pm and had wanted to wake up at 10.15pm to run... but sadly that didn't happen... I slept all the way till around 4plus am... and then looking at the clock.. its no point going for a morning run I tell myself but I set the alarm to 6am just in case I can wake up for a run.. but haha I didn't wake up and the next thing I know.. its already 10am! Cool Sunday Morning! The Eve of Christmas Eve!

I had placed this entry as Part 1 as I think I will be blogging again tonight.. but for now, lets talk about what happened on Saturday! I woke up like 1.30pm.... and heard a loud knock on the door.. "Mr Terence! Mr Terence!"... I quickly woke up and went to open the door... "Hi Mr Terence, This is blah blah blah the manager from Singpost. You complaint that your magazine was bended right? Can we take alook at it?" ... OMG I was shocked that they actually came down personally to investigate. I thought they would have just replied my email blah blah and explained.. but they actually came down sia... and the guy explained that the bend could be due to the transition from Hong Kong to Singapore.. and not the delivery portion... and the sleepy me couldn't really question him too much.. especially they came down personally... so yeah I take it as it is.. but he asked me to email the IDN HQ to question about it though... and gave me his name card.

After closing back the door, I went back to sleep for a while more before waking up to do some chores for my mummy. We were supposed to make popiah today so I had helped her cut the popiah vegetables.... cut garlic.. and etc while she prepare the other stuffs... and so my lunch was bee hoon soup, and dinner was 2 pieces of pohpiah.. *feeling very healthy* :P

The rest of the time was spent doing some crappy arty stuffs on my laptop.. trying to figure out if I can convert bitmap to vector in fireworks.. hahaha :P yeah.. and that's about all for yesterday! I will try to find some time to upload the pictures taken with Bernard on Friday.. quite sleepy again .. haha but got some work to do so will spend some time clearing my work stuffs before slacking again tonight. Tonight's plan is to run!

Its the season to spend money~ lalalalalalalalala.... Its the time of the year again as we spend money to buy gifts and presents for close friends and relatives... and it applies to me as well. This year's christmas shopping was carried out over a few days. On Wednesday, I met up with Huiming to go Bugis to shop shop for presents.. then after I'm done getting the stuffs I wanted.. we went for dinner at Lerk Thai. Mark came along shortly and joined us for dinner. After dinner, we walked to Suntec City followed by Marina Square before heading back home to sleep. It was a complete knock out! Tired but fun!

On Thursday morning, I work up with a pain in my right eye. There's something growing in my right eye and its damn painful. Cant even touch my right eye cause will have a very bad and painful feeling... but luckily it was a public holiday so I'd spent my time at home rotting... and then I spent my whole afternoon writing christmas cards followed by some more shopping in the evening, before I headed back home for a 5.2km run at night.

I noticed that my stamina is like deproving... kinda can't run longer then the normal distance.. The timing for yesterday's run was 35:17:07 and the pace didnt seem to be very consistent.. sometimes fast and slow. Sigh not sure what is happening man!

Today I went to work as usual with a swollen eye... damn painful but still trying to get through it. Met Bernard, my "darling" in army during BMT at Orchard for some chit chat and window shopping. He's feeling down so I was there to give him some comfort. Its really been some time since I met him. The last time I saw him was like in one of the IT Show when he was doing sales for epiCenter for Apply. Anyway, we went to Soup Restaurant for dinner before heading to a pub for drinks. Played Jenga with him and it was quite fun! We took some pics also and I will try to post them up later! It has been a long time since I had such kinda fun... though feeling worried about him at the same time.

Right now I'm at home blogging and my eyes like closing... hahaha but think I'm gonna wait for him to SMS me before I go to sleep ba.. Anyway its gonna be christmas real soon so time to celebrate and be merry! Had already spent alot of money liaoz... haiz I must save I must save I must save money!!!!

Will blog again soon! *Nites*

Its quite a tiring day today.. last night I was supposed to take a nap and wake up to do all the work and stuffs but ended up sleeping till like 9am today... and had to take a cab to work... kinda waste money.. sigh already promise not to take cab but I still fail to do so! I must endure! but sad to say the workload is really crazy. I can understand how my buddy felt when I was not around but somehow... this time I am feeling quite jia lat too... people simply go on leave without HANDLING over their work. How am I supposed to know what's going on?Its really 开完笑!! and to make things worst.. some of the things are like due TOMORROW? and I'm only aware of it today? Sigh.. Its unfair to be fair...

I know I went for my leave liao but I had tried to hand over my work as clearly as possible... and not leave things dangling around for others to guess what is happening.. and thus I was expecting the same from my guys when I am back but sigh.. its really quite chia lat.. and I believed my bestie and I have learnt a very important lesson from this. Anyway not gonna talk about work already. I still have to do my work later after I bath and etc...

Today I went to Book Fest with Aiping and Jason... bought some stationaries for the office... and yeah hope we can really improve the overall administrative aspect of the company. Lunch we went to the new market that has already opened... saw alot of familiar stores... like the goreng pisang and the ah pek wanton mee! They're all back in action! and gosh I am gonna like slowly enjoy my lunch once again. For today, I had fish mee sua for lunch. Its been ages since I last went to the market to eat so I'm feeling kinda "fresh" about it. For dinner, it was prawn dumpling noodle at Food Republic at Suntec. Not bad la... but I think alot of MSG.. makes me very thirsty man...

After reaching home which was already 11plus... I went for a 5km run with a timing of 35:43:46. I guess its a good enough timing for me although I was hoping for a longer distance.. but I guess we shall take things slow at a time. I still have my christmas cards yet to write and christmas gifts to buy.. I shall do them all tomorrow after work. Planning to meet Huiming for dinner at Bugis because it's near his home HAHAHA... but then if Vivocity got Muji.. then I won't mind wor cos I am going there to get a gift for someone.

Anyway time to go bath very soon. Shall blog again tomorrow! *Nites*

First day back at work and I am already feeling damn sian about it.... has loads of emails to check and reply... some are still pending and its like a crazy mad rush.. feeling the stress once again.

Today I met AP to go work together. Was late for like 15 mins... and feeling bad about it. Went to office trying to feel fresh but didnt really achieve that feeling. It was only a wave of siansation all over me. Luckily there's AP and JWu for me to talk and entertain, otherwise I'm not too sure how I'm gonna survive the whole day. We went to Sim Lim Square for lunch today... JWu had to buy his harddisk and stuffs so yeah we accompanied him for the trip. Went to Burlington to buy my pao pao cha before heading back to office. Did some work... falling asleep and then AP suggested something about going IKEA and thus I said ok... so we both left work around 6.15 and headed to Tampines Interchange for dinner before going to IKEA. We walked quite a fair bit around the place, looking for items that our boss wanted for the new office.. so by the time we're done, we're like 5 mins to their closing time and I was already feeling very very tired... she then gave me a ride home on her cab...

After I bath, I was logging in to the school site to check for assignment results and saw my assignment 3 scores for one of my subjects. I must say I am quite disappointed with the scoring given... and once again I emailed the lecturer about it and I hope I had done the right thing...

Now I am feeling ultra sleepy and is thinking of taking a nap before doing some work... Will update my blog again soon ba... *Nites*

Yup, I will be back to work tomorrow. Its quite a siansation feeling I must say as I was supposed to be away for a "break" but the break is actually my examinations and assignments clearing period.. so no break.. only the accumulation of more work + tiredness.

I was supposed to be writing the christmas cards but sadly I didn't have the time to do it. Saturday was spent going out with Huiming and Mark. We met up to go to the Popular Bookfair together... then went shopping at Raffles City, Marina Square and Bugis. We went to Xin Wang for lunch though.. had a chit chat session there before we continue our shopping trip. Practically spent quite a bit though.. bought the 戏剧情牵25 CD... bought a top from Zara and two tops from Top Shop... still got more things to get though.. Christmas presents and stuffs.. and yeah that day by the time I was back... I was pretty engrossed in doing a new skin for the blog... I have also changed the blog title to page seventy seven... :D

Today I had spent the earlier portion of the day going to the market with my mum because she'd wanted to cook popiah so I went with her to buy the ingredients. I then spent some time backing up my stuffs and packing, vaccuming and mopping the room. By the time I was done, its time for Star Awards already so I sorta spent some time watching TV and clearing some emails from work as well....

Tomorrow I'm meeting AP at 9am.. and gosh its almost 2am liao.. I think I should really go sleep now... I will blog again soon... *Nites*

感觉真的很好！考完试了正个人都觉得轻松自由多了! I know la my chinese standard is only like that only but at least I tried to write something.

Yes Its finally over! I have already completed the 3 examination papers and I'm still in one piece! Actually, still in one piece but I'm ultra shag. For the past few days I have not been sleeping well, either falling asleep on the table or taking one to two hours of short naps before starting to study again. Ok before I proceed to rant on and on.. just a after paper war analysis!

Wednesday I had this killer paper... ICT 209 Data Structures and Abstractions. I felt very disappointed with myself for not being able to answer the questions accordingly. I guess the confidence that I had for this subject a few weeks back got over me.. and thus I neglected it and was concentrating on the other killer paper ICT 208 Commercial Computing. I didn't expect the paper for ICT 209 to be so tough... and neither did I expect myself to only UNDERSTAND and KNOW so much. I managed to perform well for all the assignments for this subject but I'm really not sure what went wrong.... I felt that there's a lack of practice on my part. I didn't understand why certain algorithms were written in this or that way... I couldn't get any of the algorithms into my head... and then I blanked out for the paper... I simply just can't pen down anything about the questions asked. I had to write and write and cancel here and there and eventually have to submit the paper with some of the questions blank! Yes.. I know its wasted but I was at my wits end on what to write. All the hardwork for the assignments seems to have gone to waste.. I did so well for my assignments yet I can't really perform in the exams. I have been asking myself the question "What if I flunk the subject?" ever since the paper ended. I don't really want to see a Sup Paper on my Transcript. It will look awful.. and so I was pretty bothered with it... till now I am still.. but I guess I can't do anything for now but to see the results.

On the other hand, today's paper seems to be alright. Though I can't remember some definitions and questions, I managed to answer most of the questions and thus I am feeling ok with it....I just hope I will do well for the exams.

Anyway I have learnt a very valuable lesson from this whole examinations saga... With effect from the next semester, I have planned the following as part of my new year resolution as well:

Finally I have completed round 1 of my examinations today! and it felt as though I have completed all 3 papers!!! but then its gonna be back to reality soon once I finish writing this blog entry. The next paper round 2 is about Data Structures and Abstractions... about programming in C++ to be exact.. its a total siansation of course.

I have not been running since my last run on last Wednesday or Thursday. Feeling kinda bad about it but I have decided to let my legs rest for this week so that I can start all over again next week after exams. I have been getting leg cramps lately as well during my sleep.. its quite painful lor.. and I'm trying to find ways of preventing it.

I hope one week of break will not affect my running stamina and performance... I will try to get back on track soon but at the same time concern with my leg injury. I have emailed to CGH about it and they'd advised me to see a polyclinic and then get a referral to CGH or I can go to them directly (but that might mean no subsidy i think)... so I most probably will go make an effort to go to the poly clinic to queue after my exams.

Today's paper was really quite disappointing. There are so many things that I have read and memorised before but they just became empty the moment I started writing. I really hope to see a nice grade for each of my subject... to me I personally feel that a pass is not good enough... I would like to get something better... and perhaps the best. Its a goal I tell myself I must work towards to.. just like running a 21km next year. Its a goal for me as well. Its not that I am ambitious or what but I just feel that I want to excel in it... the way I have done it during my poly years... I will be revising my studying schedule for the next semester. I will make sure I read up before and after classes to ensure I know what's going on and No more last minute work to be done.... It will be another achievement and goal that I had set for myself for the new year 2008. Let 2007 be a learning year and I will move on to be better... (hahaha so self consoling :P 自我安慰).

Starting to get closer and closer to more of my classmates already. I really like my current class of people now.. although we're small and all guys.. we're happy and there to support each other (less some though)... and I think its an amazing thing that I'd started my studies at Kaplan.. though there were some administrative hiccups here and there.. I guess I didn't regret my decision yet so far. Travelling to orchard to school seems to be exciting most of the time... maybe it's only my first semester and thus I'm still not getting the kick of being sian yet... but yeah... it feels good doing something different from work.

Alright.. enough of blahing today. Have to get back to my school work. Time to work hard for World War 2 on Wednesday. Not sure who's reading my blog but take care everyone! Adios!

I have been trying to revise for my exams for the past few days. Yesterday and Today were practically spent sitting in front of my books and lecture notes and reading up about topics like Business Intelligence, Decision Support Systems and Data Warehousing.... Sounds indian to you huh? Well... there's still more to come and this is only for one subject.

I'm having a total of 3 examination papers... One on Monday on the above mentioned topics (plus others like Data Mining and etc).. one on Wednesday on Data Structures and Abstractions and one on Friday on System Analysis and Design. The current plan now is to study for the paper on Monday first, as its the most theory among all and I have yet to touch on the books since day one of the class... so I hope I can finish revision for that subject by tomorrow so that I can attempt to do one of the exam papers and some end of chapter questions and to bring them for revision study discussion on Saturday with my classmates. *Stress*

I went for a run on Tuesday. It was planned to be on Monday but I was busy working on my assignment and thus no time to submit. On Tuesday, after meeting up with my classmate to guide him on his assignment, I went for a run. Took me about 1hr 05mins and 15secs to complete a 9.7km route. Not bad but I notice that my right knee is not cooperating with me and one part of the sole of my shoe dropped off too... guess its time to spend some money to buy a new pair of shoes. Looking at adidas or asics... hmm

I today went for another run but it was a terrible mistake.. my right knee was pretty painful during the run and I had to stop and walk ... stop and walk for a few times during my normal 5.2km distance run. I really dont wish to get any injury and its decided that I will stop running till my exams are over. This will allow me some time to recuperate. I am also thinking of seeing a doctor if the pain persists. Its not really a pain but an ache between the joints at the knee.. I am also not sure why. I don't use to have that last time.. but yeah I dont mind spending some money to see a doctor.. I really want to run for life and is targetting to participate in the Sundown Marathon Run for 10 or 21km distance. I am thinking of either going to a polyclinic and then see if its ok for them to refer me to the sports clinic at CGH if the condition is serious.. or to go direct to my own doctor at CGH...

Anyway besides the bad run today... someone just dashed past me and zoom like flash... just like how my roboroski hamsters run.. haha.. he really run very fast and was halfnaked.. I'm impressed with the speed but if he's running a marathon like that... I think its abit impossible.. HAHAHA..

Oh yar and I received an SMS from my boss.. I feel very sad when I read his SMS and I feel for him. I don't understand why there are people who just simply like to stab others in the back when they are working in the same company? People like this deserve to die! I believe in Karma. They maybe in the upper hand for now but I know the good will be rewarded. I hope my boss can be strong... and our company can be strong as we work towards killing the baddies :P

Ok... Time to hit the books again. Hope my legs will recover real soon!

Today as in Yesterday was meant to be Revision Day 1 for my examinations but I have yet to start on it as I was trying to rush finish an assignment that's due just 3 hours ago. Its a freaking mad assignment that took away my sleep for the last few days and I'm really sleep deprieved but I cant sleep.. because I have to study.. and also I have tons of emails at work to reply. Its hard to explain....

I managed to squeeze in a 5.2km run on Sunday night. It was quite a lonely run... No runners in sight. I believed everyone must have gone for the SCSM2007 run in da morning. I vowed to take part in it next year.. at least for the 10km one.

I completed yesterday's run at 33:20:34mins, not a bad timing considering the average is usually 37 and the best effort run the other time was about 33mins too...however for this run I had a leg cramp during 3/4 of the run... and had to stop away to stretch and it affected abit of my performance. The pain between my knees seems to be better now.. not so much already... and I hope to recover soon so that I can run abit longer distance, otherwise I will lose my stamina.

Examinations is in 6 days time.. I'm really beginning to feel the HEAT and the STRESS. Don't really have someone to really talk about this... about work and etc... its something very difficult for me to explain because I don't want to be in the position of talking about my school work and work all the time.. its like who's not stress man and I seriously feel that I don't have the right to complain!

Anyway Its back to replying more emails before I can start my revisions... oh yar I went to the temple on Saturday with my class mates to pray. Went to the Guan Yin Miao at Bugis... and I did my first time of getting a lot... "qiu qian"... had to toss about 3 times before getting it... and it was a good one... I hope what it says come true...

That's all. Will blog again soon!