I'd expected a part 2 of the blog for today... but sigh I'm not really in a very good mood right now. I have not been going through mood swings for quite some time already but it just strucked me when I completed my 5.2km run just now. Today's run was a horrible one, I feel tired and restless and my stamina and timing is dropping tremendously. I'm not sure what is happening and I'm feeling so frustrated and confused about all that is happening around me.
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve... I should be happy... I should be merry... I should be cherry but I'm not... I have been feeling sulky but didn't really show it out till today. There's too much things hidden deep inside for me to tell anyone about it and I guess I'm not too sure how I should go about doing it... Its just hard these days to really find someone to talk about stuffs... and I actually said something harsh (not sure if its harsh but I felt that it's harsh) to a friend and I'm feeling very very bad about it right now.. sigh...
I still have my loads of christmas presents to wrap tomorrow. Actually I'm not sure if I should have spent so much money buying gifts for people who may or may not appreciate it... this shall be the last year that I do such things... I guess I'm not gonna do it anymore... I feel sick and tired of being nice and treating people nice... Its time to move on...MOVE ON and think for myself... I just simply care too much about others to really think for myself.
I should go bath soon. Today's run timing sucks.. Its 37mins 15 secs.... I hope I will feel better soon... *Nites* |