I'm having lotsa random thoughts these days. Today I'm supposed to be working on some documentation now.. but yet I'm actually blogging.. but well.. no matter how late I stay up.. I will still not be able to finish all the work and school work.

This trimester seems to be a very packed and siong one.. There's three subjects: Databases, Information System Management and Operating System. The only one that I have confidence in is Databases. For Information System Management, its one of the siongest as every week there is a critique to be submitted... a form of review about articles that the school ask us to read.. and also presentations and research essays. I have volunteered to do two presentations as the class has a shortage of students, a few of us will have to do double.. and I'm like one of them. For Operating System... its about Linux and configurations so I am really very LOST in it. I will be depending alot on my classmates to find out what is going on.. Hope I can survive this.

This week alone.. there's tutorials to be done.. labwork to be completed and submitted and critiques to be done.. and not forgetting about my work at work.. I have a few projects that are running concurrently... KMS is in the UAT Phase... EPS is in the GUI Design Phase... Cresendo in the Scoping Phase... LDIS in the Preview Phase... MTS in the Change Requests and UAT Phase... and many other reports and requests to follow up on, not forgetting M*K. M*K is like my very first project since I join my company..... and its like a baby to me as I watch it grow.. and the relationship with the management of M*K has always been fine till a switched in the management team from one company to another. Things started going downhill... and It seems that all those things that I had done before or for them will not be appreciated because they are not happy with my service.. and has informed my boss that they don't wish to pay the company because of lapses from us. I was like.. that's not very nice.. you don't change your business requirements over night and expect us to deliver the next day.... that's not a lapse even if we were to do it like 1 month later! We have other customers to take care of as well! It left me saddened for sometime lah cos I rarely receive customer complains... and also I just feel sad that its hard to find a listening ear nowadays...

As the workload gets heavier... I foresee myself having lesser time to blog.. but at the same time.. blogging helps me to pen down my feelings and my thoughts.. especially for the past few weeks... I don't feel that things are going as smoothly as I expected it to be... I feel that its really hard now for me to find a listening ear... someone who I can really talk to... and even if I were to talk to someone.. I always feel that they are there to just listen for the sake of listening... and perhaps entertaining me... I have been ultra sensitive these days... and little things that people says or do will make me ponder and wonder... Sometimes when I talk about the school work or work that I have.. it doesn't mean I am expecting some form of help from you... I am just asking a question... and I don't expect an answer from you.. but somehow the responses I get from people who are close to me seems to be that way.. the moment I talk about something.. they will go like oh oh I cant help you... In the first place I wasn't even asking you for my help.. I just need to share my thoughts and feelings with someone else... its not that difficult isn't it?

Anyway Its getting late.. I ought to continue with my work stuffs.. and maybe take a short nap. There's still a BBQ to plan for. I will blog about the rest later tomorrow or on wednesday. *Nites*

I just came back from my standard run but haha today is not supposed to be my running day :P but yeah I was feeling very frustrated and moody earlier on after coming home from school.. it was just a very sudden feeling that I find it hard survive for the night... and I told myself to go for a run to make myself feel better.. and to wake my body up.. (cos I was pratically yawning all the way just now..)

The timing for today is 32:05:59... quite a good timing.. I was still expecting 33 minutes or more but it turned out to be quite a good timing for me... and so yeah.. another run completed. I guess I'm really in love with running already... ever since that idea of joining SCSM 2007 for 10km started me running.. I just couldnt stop already... I'm like doing more and more .. from the 2.4km runs to 3.2 and then 4.. 5 and eventually hitting my 17 km.. which was the best distance run so far... but yeah.. I have yet to hit anything beyond that... but I have been doing a consistence 5.2km run every alternate days with a 8 to 11km run inbetween different days... and yup I'm working towards my goal of completing my first AHM... still in progress though... and I'm sure I will achieve it. Losing Weight, Getting a good bod and tan is also part of my new year resolutions.. but yeah I will slowly work towards each of them... but for now, I'm pretty happy with my new life.. :)

Alright.. back to what happened today.. I woke up late.. yes.. I know ultra late.. and had to tell NAP to go to work herself first.. after which i went to TM to buy egg tarts for the rest of the guys in office and then stayed in office during lunch time and gotten NAP to help me ta bao... had wanted to eat grumpy auntie's fish soup with mian xian.. but not open so had to eat some nice but oily fish ball mee.. :( The rest of the time in office was rather boring so i dun think I wanna talk about it...

In the evening, I went to school for my 2nd lesson of the trimester. Its an introduction seminar on Information System Management... and sigh.. its a tough course... had to do 11 weekly analysis and critique and a 3k word research paper on any topics involving IT... Everyone is supposed to do a presentation every week on the research topic... so my turn was in week 8.. but yeah I also volunteer for another one in week 9 as there were shortages of people for other topics and one of my bestie and groupie had already volunteered for another one.. so i thought of doing it as well.. I guess the lecturer is good enough for now... and the topic for this subject is actually quite relevant to my area of work.. but for now the thing is the siong part of this subject... it involves quite alot of concepts on the impact of IT on businesses and thus alot of reviews and analysis has to be done to have a firm understanding of the topic. I will try my best again this semester and hope to do well. The next upcoming lesson will be on Saturday at 2pm to 6pm with another lecturer who we are already so familiar with.. so lets see how it goes.

Just some random thoughts for now... I'm just thinking to myself sometimes what makes people wanna complaint? Like for myself for example... I'm a typical complain king ... but I guess I complain over matters that matters... but should the person who gotten the complain be angry with the one who complained about him? I guess he or she has the right to be angry IF he or she has been doing the job accordingly and already trying their best and people are still not satisfied with the results.. but if he is angry just because he kena a complain.. then I guess he or she should go and reflect on his or her own work and attitude. Personally, If I received a complain from a customer, I will firstly ask myself what went wrong? Did I really not do the thing according to what was requested? Did I not put in the efforts that I should? If I am at fault, I will apologise and improve on that particular area.. With the whole school saga about the facilities, for the past two lessons I have seen some small little changes taking place... things are much more proper now.. and I feel that my program manager is at least showing us that he is now trying his best... and I appreciated it. But somehow from this saga... I just have this feeling that we are the bad guys who complain.. and make the life of others a tough one.. Its not just a feeling I guess but the way how some people responded to us makes me feel that way.. but whatever it is... my aim is to finish my studies.. I still like my school.. and I still wanna do well for my examinations and thus I hope to get some closure soon on what happened.. Like what one of my besties in class said to someone else... everyone makes mistakes.. and whats important is that they learn from their mistakes and move on and improve on it...

Yeah finally school reopens! I have been very enthu about going school and it feels good to be sitting in class after work to listen to lectures.. (and of course leaving office early to go school :P). It was quite a good start today... everything were already in place when we got there.. and everything seems to be smooth sailing on the first day (except for webCT which my program manager explained that its due to a fault from the Aussie counterpart). The first lesson is on Databases and the lecturer seems to be a very young chap.. perhaps 30 yrs old or so... and yeah hopefully there will be more time allocated on tutorials and practicals.

Earlier in the day I was actually busy with work la.. and then had to left office early to go for a meeting at 2pm... was quite a dreadful meeting... and it lasted till like 4.30 and by the time I stepped out of the meeting room.. it was already raining heavily and thus I went for a drink with Jason before making my way to school.

Oh yar... after reading through yesterday's blog.. I realised that its really crappy when I didn't blog regularly... cos I will tend to lump and compress all the happenings and crap into one whole entry.. which makes the whole thing damn disorganised.... I shall try to make it a habit to blog daily :)

Today is also my running day and the timing achieved is 31:06:60.. not a bad timing la... nowadays my runs seems to improve le for the 5.2km distance.. shall work harder to improve in timing for the 10km distance... hahaha

Oh one last thing before I go to sleep (cos I'm really very tired..).. I realised another thing today.. and that is my patience is getting shorter and shorter on certain conversations.... I get frustrated very easily on people who irritates me with their indecisiveness and etc... Pisces are meant to be very nice and patient people isnt it.... why am I feeling so frustrated nowadays!

Wow! Its been like 1 week plus close to 2 since I last blogged! Amazing! :P... Ok I have been bery lazy recently... and thus the reason for not blogging. *oops* There's quite a fair bit of stuffs to update I guess so I shall try to squeeze in as much content as possible.

Firstly, the runs... I have been running but not as frequent for the past two weeks. I'm like almost dead tired most of the time when I reach home from work after going out... I can like immediately dozed off to sleep on the bed without bathing! (on one ocassion only.. I personally find it disgusting but I am seriously ultra tired...) and thus I didnt run as much as I had wanted but so far.. the timings for my run has improved though... they are listed as follows:

Tomorrow will be the start of a new school term and I hope I am still able to keep up with my running. Will try to run as much as I can... and hope I can still fulfill my new year resolution for 2008. :)

One of the causes of my tiredness for the past two weeks was due to the amount of work that were given to me plus the outings that I have been going. I went dragon fly / mono last friday to celebrate a friend's birthday after attending a company dinner, (actually its the same group of people hahaha) and we went back quite early although the fun was just beginning nia... but still ok la.. sang a few songs at mono... and then there was the dinner session with Desmond, Mark and Huiming. Supposed to meet Huiming to go to his Robinsons to buy his stuffs de.. then I was held up with some interviews and thus went late... and the penalty for being late was to treat the 3 of them lor.. but still ok la.. we're good friends after suffering one trimester liao so hahaha... then on the following day was supposed to be a feedback session that I had requested with the school to sort out on all the administrative issues that we had encountered during the first trimester and to hope that something can be done about it. It was quite a good session as I had a chance to really talk about all the things that I am unhappy with.. (and seriously there is alot of it :P)... oh but prior to that... I'd received my examination results from the school! It was quite a shocker la cos I just randomly log in to check only... and then I saw the results and couldnt really believe it. I gotten 2 High Distinction and 1 Distinction... very disappointed with the 1 Distinction though as its the one that I did quite well for the coursework.. but think the exams pulled me down lah... then Friday I went to watch AVP2... quite nice la.. duno why all the reviews says not nice hahahaha and also went to collect my specs lor... I spent my whole saturday at home cleaning my room and watching mobtv.. SPOP is actually quite nice ah.... so is my Bai Jia Le.. HAHA.. then Sunday i rotted at home sleeping the whole day.. :P

Anyway, how time flies.. tomorrow is the start of a new trimester. I am ready and geared up for it liao.. but yeah gotten news this afternoon that another of my class mate has deferred his coursework! Oh my god.. another man down... I wonder how many more will be doing this.. and then will the class ends up with me and desmond and mark? :( *scary* and I don't really wish to think about it. HAHA

Oh there's also something else that has been troubling me for the past one week... its work related though.. my bestie has been wearing long sleeve shirts and pants for a particular project... but for me its really a barrier for me to do that as I cant live without my cap for some particular reasons... and as my bestie I thought he understand what I am going through but I guess he didnt... and me as the project manager, I was wearing the company polo tee with jeans and he in his pants and shirt... its a total mismatch.. i tried asking him to wear polo with me but he refused... and its like a very difficult thing for me... and yeah I'm trying my best to accomodate but as a PM, it just doesn't look good on me.. but nevertheless.. I had spoken with my boss about it and he's ok with me wearing cap.. but he said it will be good to put on a shortsleeve shirt and pants.. and thats like DUH! so my other bestie told me to just be myself... my work still matters the most although presentation is equally important...