I'm having lotsa random thoughts these days. Today I'm supposed to be working on some documentation now.. but yet I'm actually blogging.. but well.. no matter how late I stay up.. I will still not be able to finish all the work and school work.

This trimester seems to be a very packed and siong one.. There's three subjects: Databases, Information System Management and Operating System. The only one that I have confidence in is Databases. For Information System Management, its one of the siongest as every week there is a critique to be submitted... a form of review about articles that the school ask us to read.. and also presentations and research essays. I have volunteered to do two presentations as the class has a shortage of students, a few of us will have to do double.. and I'm like one of them. For Operating System... its about Linux and configurations so I am really very LOST in it. I will be depending alot on my classmates to find out what is going on.. Hope I can survive this.

This week alone.. there's tutorials to be done.. labwork to be completed and submitted and critiques to be done.. and not forgetting about my work at work.. I have a few projects that are running concurrently... KMS is in the UAT Phase... EPS is in the GUI Design Phase... Cresendo in the Scoping Phase... LDIS in the Preview Phase... MTS in the Change Requests and UAT Phase... and many other reports and requests to follow up on, not forgetting M*K. M*K is like my very first project since I join my company..... and its like a baby to me as I watch it grow.. and the relationship with the management of M*K has always been fine till a switched in the management team from one company to another. Things started going downhill... and It seems that all those things that I had done before or for them will not be appreciated because they are not happy with my service.. and has informed my boss that they don't wish to pay the company because of lapses from us. I was like.. that's not very nice.. you don't change your business requirements over night and expect us to deliver the next day.... that's not a lapse even if we were to do it like 1 month later! We have other customers to take care of as well! It left me saddened for sometime lah cos I rarely receive customer complains... and also I just feel sad that its hard to find a listening ear nowadays...

As the workload gets heavier... I foresee myself having lesser time to blog.. but at the same time.. blogging helps me to pen down my feelings and my thoughts.. especially for the past few weeks... I don't feel that things are going as smoothly as I expected it to be... I feel that its really hard now for me to find a listening ear... someone who I can really talk to... and even if I were to talk to someone.. I always feel that they are there to just listen for the sake of listening... and perhaps entertaining me... I have been ultra sensitive these days... and little things that people says or do will make me ponder and wonder... Sometimes when I talk about the school work or work that I have.. it doesn't mean I am expecting some form of help from you... I am just asking a question... and I don't expect an answer from you.. but somehow the responses I get from people who are close to me seems to be that way.. the moment I talk about something.. they will go like oh oh I cant help you... In the first place I wasn't even asking you for my help.. I just need to share my thoughts and feelings with someone else... its not that difficult isn't it?

Anyway Its getting late.. I ought to continue with my work stuffs.. and maybe take a short nap. There's still a BBQ to plan for. I will blog about the rest later tomorrow or on wednesday. *Nites*